I was so hungry I could’ve gnawed my arm off. But, being the perpetual Weight Watcher that I am, I decided a trip to the ice cream parlor on the way back from a meeting this morning was out of the question.
So what’s a hungry girl gonna do? Eat a rice cake? Maybe.
I’d looked at the package of white cheddar cheese rice cakes for months not wanting to touch it. It was one of those double stacks in a plastic bag so they all didn’t go stale if you didn’t eat them quickly. I’d had that last half stack since last fall. Never opened.
It was hard. They were Stuart’s rice cakes. I rarely ate them.
Yesterday I used his green bean steamer for the first time since December. That was hard, too.
Every day is hard without Stuart. Every. Single. Day.
But then, Noodledog said something that got me out of today’s grief funk.
Here goes: “I’ve decided that it looks like a marshmallow melted on Stuart.”
That’s the sweetest vision. For a sweet dog. The white spot on his back really does look like a marshmallow melted on him.
Maybe I can eat marshmallows and smile from now on.
I love that marshmellow thought.
The marshmallow thought won’t work for green beans. “They remind me of Stuart when he was moldy” just doesn’t cut it.
We did have some moldy beans sometimes. Yuk.
You know we all have our own ways and times to grieve. Some are harder than others, but still never easy. What has helped me for Elsa’s passing is knowing she is still here, just not physically. She’s in my heart and my brain. She is in the early morning sun, late day dusk. Her dog tag is on my key chain. I talk to her (not out loud, so people don’t think I’m nuts). I can feel her presence on many occasions drifting in and out of my world. So, my blue days are fewer and hopefully will dissipate further. But she will always be here. I love the marshmallow analogy, it fits Stuart so well! Go make some Rice Krispie treats and eat the whole pan 🙂
I should make some and eat the whole pan. You’re right! Thank you for these words of wisdom. Stuart is here. I’ve clouded my life with grief so much, that I don’t see him. I need to get a move on and start living again. He’d be so mad. So would Elsa. Sweet girl. You’ve helped a great deal. Thank you.
It sure is hard. Stuart likes the rice cakes, eat them for him. Mom calls me Benny all the time. I let her cause I know she misses him. It gets easier with time but we do say good night to him every night
Edward (& Lily)
Benny, Benny, Benny. That boy. The cutest. Thank you. I know you’ve been there. I appreciate your thoughts. I still say good night to BoBo, too. And pat the sofa where he slept, which is where Stuart slept beside me, too. Funny how that makes us feel better?
I love the marshmallow thought too. Yes, I miss Kipper every single day. Today was a bad day for missing him for some reason. He is with me in the house in spirit. I just wish I could hold him and love on him, as I am sure you feel the same about Stuart. They capture our hearts!
They do, Gail. They reach right in and grab our hearts. Here’s wishing you better days ahead. With happy thoughts and memories of your sweet boy. I wish that for myself, too.
From now on, whenever I see a marshmallow, I will think of Stuart …and I will smile. 😊
McDuff & Mom 💙💛💜
I think I will, too! It’s a happy thought. Thank you for thinking of Stuart, too.
Too wonderful! I will never look at a marshmallow the same way again…nor will Mama!
I think it’s time to make some s’mores, don’t you? Marshmallows all around! For everyone!
see, it’s all about ‘sweetness’. That is what Stuart is and was…sweetness in your life.
hugs…L&M’s mom peep
It is. Marshmallows are sweet too. And you’re sweet to be our friends. Thank you.
We have a green bean break in honor of Stuart. I never thought to steam them. I like my veggies raw and so do the Scotties.
Thank you for a break for Stuart! (He didn’t like raw beans. Steamed.)
They like instant gratification. I do too.
Why do I stop by to visit when you and I are feel blue at the same time so often? I will smile every time I have a marshmallow now and think of Stuart! (which is a weekly thing bless you!) I have been really missing Oskar a ton lately (can it be almost 6 years?) and I know what you mean. I still don’t use a lot of “his” stuff for any of the kids, but still don’t let go of it, nor do my parents funnily…..I feel you and will raise my marshmallows in a toast with a smile for now on!
Why did I not see this kind comment last April? I don’t know, but I’m happy to see it now. Thank you! I hope you’re doing well. And eating marshmallows! Cheers to that!
I see that many of us miss our pets that have gone on before us, leaving their paw prints all over our hearts, and an ache in our souls. But aren’t we better off that we had them for the time we did than not to have known them? Yes!! Marshmallows all around!!
You’re right. And that’s a positive thought. Thank you.
I understand. And I still have Frosty’s cheese cubes in my fridge since 2009… and I think I will keep them as long as no living things come out of the package…
Marshmallows are good… they are the perfect treatment for heart&soul…
Do you? Yes. Keep them. And smile.
That’s a wonderful thought – marshmallow 🙂 I’m sending you bunches of hogs and snout kisses my friend. I wish I was closer in times like this. I could come over and keep you company and we could hold hands/hooves and watch television together. XOXO – Bacon
And you know I would love to hold your hooves and smooch your snout. You’re the best! (Your roommates and your peeps ain’t so bad either.)
aaww thanks. ❤ you. XOXO – Bacon
It’s been 4 years since My Angel Hazel left me, and I still miss her, especially every night because she used to lay in bed with us and snuggle up close! I still talk to her when I lay down at night, and I ask God to please let me see her again in Heaven! I totally understand your grief. Don’t think you have to rush out of it, time will help. Do whatever is natural for you. Only you know what you are going through and what you are feeling.
Dear Stu getting num-nums from you in the picture is so cute! He does look like he rolled in a soft marshmallow and it stuck to him! What a nice way to think of it.
What you are going through is normal! I’m telling you, my husband seriously thought I might need some psychiatric care when my Hazel left because I was so sad that I could NOT stop crying, I couldn’t eat, or get out of bed or leave the house! I had retired early just to spend the last years of her life with her. She was 16 when I retired. She went to sleep in my arms on Dec. 6, 2011, and didn’t wake up again. She was 18. I was so very happy that I was able to spend those 2 years constantly with her.
Take care of yourself and be good to yourself.
Love and prayers for strength,
Riley-Puppy and Tessie-Girl’s Mum
This is so touching. Thank you for your understanding and support. I’ve often thought I need help, too. Thankfully, there’s The Scottie Chronicles! The best help.
Wow! When I wrote that, I never thought it would get this response. I’m glad it made you smile and has made others smile, too. Marshmallows for everyone! ()_) <— marshmallow
It is a wonderful sentiment. Thank you for thinking of it!
Go and make sure MiniStu’s tail is at the correct angle and if not give it a little “adjustment” and think of all the people whose lives he touched and enriched and continues to do so. ❤
I pet MiniStu all the time. He’s so wonderful. He’s right at the front door when you walk into the house. Next to a Scottie lamp. Think I’ll go pull his tail. Thank you for this precious gift.
❤ ❤ ❤