I Know I Heard Him?

Yesterday, while eating lunch with the back door open and the storm door shut, I heard a whine. Almost a squeak. As if Stuart were whining to come back inside.

Snigs at the back door

From where Sniglet is relaxing in this photo, Stuart would lounge and watch the world go by. Then, when he was ready, he’d turn around, sit, and stare a hole through the storm door to come back inside the kitchen. When we didn’t let him in right away, he’d whine to get our attention.

Never one to overexert, his whine was sometimes faint. Sometimes it wasn’t. As when he was so frustrated when the chipmunks wouldn’t “come out, come out wherever you are” and the whines were more like a strong child stamping his feet. Hard.

I know I heard him. It was so real. It was him.

In a split second, I found myself upset thinking that wherever his soul was, he was in trouble. Why whine? Why that kind of whine? The pit of my stomach felt bottomless and painful.

The last thing anybody would want for a loved one who’s crossed over, is trouble. Or distress. Or pain. Or, God forbid, fear.

I thought being over the bridge meant that all was well. Trouble free. Freedom. And perpetual happiness.

I said to the Dad Peep, “Don’t think I’m crazy, but I’m going to open the door to let him back inside.”

I stood there with the door open for a few moments. And stared at the empty “backyard kingdom”.

The Dad Peep said I was acting like a crazy person. He was serious.

I know I’m not crazy.  Am I?

 

About The Scottie Chronicles

The Scottie Chronicles began in 2009 as a voice for Stuart, a more than memorable black, brindle and white Scottish Terrier who captured hearts around the world. He passed suddenly in December 2015 from cardiac hemangiosarcoma, a nasty canine cancer that took him far too early. He would have been 10 years old in March 2016. The Scottie Chronicles is dedicated to Stuart and the joy he shared with everyone who met him or saw him from afar. If you love Scotties, please follow along. Arroooo!
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54 Responses to I Know I Heard Him?

  1. Fozziemum says:

    No…not at all…a whine is also just a whisper in terms of doggie talk…maybe Stu has met our boy..whose angel dust we picked up and bought home at 3pm today…the sun was out when he got his wings..and after days of storms and still overcast as we pulled up our driveway the sun broke through..Stu is just letting you know that for him it is business as usual..complaints and all..huge hugs Bev xxx

  2. theguster says:

    No, you are not crazy! You were trusting your instincts, and I would have done exactly what you did. I think Stuart needed to be near you and ‘spoke’ to you knowing you would help him.

    McDuff & Mom

  3. Lee says:

    I know my second scot Half Pence came around I could feel him worrying about me as it was just the two of us ~ like it is now with just Sweet William and I. Maybe Stuart made that sound because it disturbs his little soul that you are grieving so.
    Sweet William The Scot

  4. Oh no…..you are NOT crazy…..he wanted you to remember those special moments when he’d whine and you heard him and opened the door for him – – and you did it – – and that’s that. I think they continue to “touch base” with us – in many ways that sometimes only make sense to us!

    Love, Pam (and Sam)

  5. nordhuesn says:

    He was just saying “hello”. No troubles, no worries, no fear………just “hey, mom.”

  6. Kismet says:

    Maybe he’s anticipating the arrival of Whitley Westie who is making the final trip today.

  7. Toby and Banks says:

    No crazy person in sight. Just a loving, gentle human, hearing the sweetness of Stuart’s spirit come back for a visit. I know that our loving furpals, who have passed, visit us all the time! When a chipper is bugging sweet Toby, I know it’s his big brother Cane, who sent the chipper to say “hello Toby” from Cane! Our lovely animal friends are with us….All the time!

  8. rjkeyedup says:

    I Agree with Sweet William the Scott… it’s Mother’s Day weekend. His spirit is still around… but in our human-ness we lose sight of that. So Stuart had to be more demonstrative: thus his whine & know that when you opened the door he came in, to be with you! No pain, no stress, no tragedy on the other side – just his love coming thru strong.
    Ozzy & Callie’s Mom
    PS Ozzy is 5 today arooooooo!

  9. No, you are clearly not crazy, and, I don’t believe Stuart is between transitions. I too agree with Sweet William. Xxxxxxxxx Skyler

  10. Elizabeth Davis says:

    You did hear him, you’re not nuts….your post made my eyes weld up and tears spilled….I need to hear a good ARRRROOOO! We feel the presence of our scotties also, catch a shadow from the corner of my eye and feel one or the other just moved past me, or the jingle from their collar dangles and know they are near…..its their and our love for each other that makes these connections so real….my prayer for you is that some day soon the melancholy in your heart turns to sweet sweet memories of all the greatness of Stuart .

  11. Donna says:

    No you are not crazy!! He was there and wanted to come in and visit so he let you know he was there by the whine. I believe he is happy and well on the other side of the bridge and he paid you a visit because he loves and misses you. When it is your time, he will be there waiting to give you kisses!! Sometimes I feel the kisses our Corgi, Copper, would give our toes and I know he is making a visit to let us know he loves us. The whine was to get your attention. Sending you a hug!!

  12. NO. You. Are. Not! We know that was Stu, wanting to come in!

    Edgar and his mum

  13. Nessa Noodledog says:

    You are not crazy. Stuart wanted you to open the door, let the grief and sorrow out and let a clean breeze blow into your life. Lee is right, Stuart wants you to be happy again.
    Nessa Noodledog and her Mom

  14. sue ellen says:

    Your angel scotty will be with you always…and yes, you did hear the wimper. Stuart just wanted to let you know he is there with you.
    sweet when you stop and think about it….
    hugs on you , sue ellen

  15. You are not crazy, you are grieving. Stu is at peace and happy. Perhaps you heard him sigh because he loves you and knows your heart hurts. You will feel a bit better soon. Grief needs time . X

  16. You are definitely not crazy. Whee hope you can take comfort in that he will always be with you in his own special way.

    *hugs and whiffles*

    xxxx

  17. WestScott says:

    No, you are not crazy, and it was not a whine of distress. Stuart whined to get your attention so that you would do exactly what you did, as you always did in the past – open the door to let him in so he could be right there with you. He knows how much you miss him so he wants to give you signs to let you know he’s still with you in spirit and will never leave you.

  18. lauramarec says:

    Of course you aren’t crazy, Dear Peepstress! That sort of thing happened to me, too. I was always seeing my Hazel from the corner of my eye, too. It’s just that Stu is heavy on your mind and heart. He may have just wanted your attention because, though he is happy in Heaven, he also thinks of you, and that is what you hear and feel. He misses you, too.
    We are sure, and we have deep Faith that God our Father who is all Good is keeping him safe and happy.
    Just open the door when you hear him wanting in. You are NOT crazy!
    Love and kisses,
    Riley-Puppy’s and Tessie-girl’s Mum

  19. Mom’s really emotional right now and this made her cry. She agrees with you… Opening the door was a good thing. *Ear licks* Noodle

  20. corkscot says:

    I don’t think that you are crazy. I see Tory once in a while. He has been gone for a long time. He was trying to get your attention. don’t think that he is in trouble.

  21. Piglove says:

    You are not crazy. We’ve had pets ‘come back’ for visits here at the Hotel Thompson. And I don’t think the whine was distress. Think of on the other side. Maybe he did something that he knew you would recognize to let you know he was okay, that he was still there with you in spirit. He doesn’t want you to hurt my sweet friend. We love you! XOXO – Bacon’s MOM

  22. vera ersilia says:

    This post is too painful for me to say I like. Many of us have known similar experiences after losing someone we loved. Stuart came to see you, that is all…

  23. you are definitely NOT crazy!!! I believe in these things……………..DakotasDen

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